I hate myself.

My looks.
My actions.
My personality.

Right now I just hate everything about myself.

I'm a weird person.
I talk back to others.
I use sarcasm.
I'm not good at expressing myself verbally.
I'm just me.

I hate how I get so confused with what I know and what I feel.
I hate how I responded even though I know I wasn't sure.
I hate how I feel knowing that I will and I have hurt people.
I hate how I am always in a dilemma.
I hate how I always succumb too easily

There's a lot more that I can list.
But in the end, the only thing that matters is that

「 I hate myself 」

Update

Here's an update even though no one reads it :D

Well...
My life is ... more or less the same everyday. HAH.
Not much interesting going on.

Its like:
WAKEUP > SCHOOL > HOME > RJ/QUIZ/EVALUATION > SLEEP.

YEAPS. Just like that.

Oh well.
On the better side,

I'M FINALLY GOING TO JAPAN.
Not Tokyo, but Hokkaido.
*shrugs*
At least its still Japan. *glees*
I hope I can find idol shops or something.
And cheap gyaru/visual stuff.
But I find it highly impossible.
Because its gonna be Hokkaido, not Tokyo or Osaka :/

OH WELL :(

off to bed.
nights <3

Temptations.

I GOT MY PUNK RAVE BAG :DDDDDD *glees*

Okay. No pics yet, I'm still thinking of a way to break the news to my mum :/

Life's been pretty okay.
I'm recovering bit by bit, and I just wanna give a HUGE hug and kiss to Eunice !!

I always thought I'm the kind that people will talk to, but won't really bother about me, but what she tweeted was so sweeeeet ! Love her to bits and pieces !
She made me promise to eat yong tau fu for lunch yesterday, because I felt AWFULLY SICK after that fish and chips meal for lunch on Thursday D:
And when I really did eat it for lunch, I was awesomely happy the whole day !




EUNICE !! IF YOU SEE THIS, I LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS OKAY !!! <3 *sends flying kiss*


On another happy note, I've cleaned up my cupboard, but found nothing much to take out and sell :/
And I've decided to sell my NewType and Animage magazines :D
Not gonna sell my MF and G00 specials and extras though, too precious TwT

Oh well.
My life is really pretty mundane.
I'll post again later if interesting stuff happens :D

また？！

はいはい！



I know I've been changing blogs like mad.
But that's just because I'm trying to find that awesome blogging platform (I ended up at blogger and アメバ AGAIN) and that one blog name that will have some form of meaning for me, and not just random names due to the spur of the moment.


Anyway.
5th May 2011 marks the birth of this blog, which I hope, will last me for as long as it will.


Just a short update on what's going on with my life :(


I HAVE FALLEN DIRELY ILL ~


Just some indigestion that led to headaches and fever. Nothing much.
I have slight nausea spells too but that just means I can sing Nausea and Shudder all day long ~


Okay that wasn't funny.



I'm gonna meet a seller tomorrow, to get my PUNK RAVE bag. OMG I can't wait.
I just hope my body will do me some justice D:



And lastly, just a camwhore pic of myself  \( ^ ^ )/

Okay. I totally hate myself nau :/




OH OH OH. 




Just wanted to add on to this first post though, and it will be my views on haters.



I'm sure most people have gotten haters before, or gotten flamed for posting honest opinions?
Well, I'm one of 'em.


I admit. I have and will blog about either people who have made me happy, or people who have pissed me off.
I am more than happy to put your name down on my blog if you've made my day.
Just for those who do not know, I do not post names when it comes to talking about people who've pissed me off or made me unhappy to the extent that I am blogging about it.



Why make it so obvious to others that you're the one I'm talking about?
When I blog about people who piss me off, I talk about the person's character and actions in general.
Why the fuck do you have to be so defensive unless you're guilty as charged?
You only show the rest of the readers (or whatever measly readers I have) that you are the one I am talking about.



Personally I feel that there are two ways for people to take this kinda criticism.  They either see it as something for them to learn from, or something to hate on.
I'm afraid I have to say this though, its always the latter. People nowadays must be really free to hate on so many things.



Also, I do not blog to please others.




This blog will probably be a huge collection of tears, smiles, emotions and memories for the years to come. So I really do not want to have to close this blog because of excessive hating and flaming.