negativity

i guess that's just the way I am - NEGATIVE.

But I've always found negativity to be a good thing.
It helps you prepare for the worst, right?

I mean, if you're thinking in the most negative way possible, disappointments probably wouldn't hurt that much, and that makes good outcomes a pleasant surprise.

That's why I think negatively!


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Personally I think that I'm more suited to be that alone, aloof girl that no one wants to talk to.
I have amazing friends, I SWEAR.
But sometimes I'm just afraid.
I don't want things to change, I don't want things to end.
But that will never happen.

At the end of it all, I'd probably end up all alone again.


time for depression to set in.


until the next post!



(I know I've been posting lots of negative stuff, sorry about that!)

Being attached to someone is scary.

You never know when they'll leave you, you never know when they'll hurt you.

I like the feeling of being attached to someone but I fear the disappointment at the end of the road.

I've seen it too many times, and the paranoia is getting to me.

Will there ever be someone who will love me for who I am, and prove to me that he will never want to give up on me?

When will I be able to believe these words: " I can't promise you that there won't be tears and hurt and pain in this r/s, but through it all, I'll be with you."?

Maybe I just don't want to face my own feelings.

But then again, it scares me.

convincing

trying to convince myself that I am imagining things.

I don't want it to end up like how it was last time.


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I have a wild imagination.
I tend to think about a lot of unnecessary things.
But sometimes I let my imagination get the better of me, and I end up like an idiot through it all.

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