tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-77750325594823143102024-03-05T14:54:59.947+08:00mindless obsession.mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.comBlogger63125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-53309075665925734892012-11-15T22:22:00.000+08:002012-11-15T22:22:03.653+08:00sometimessometimes I hate being the way I am.<br />
<br />sometimes I hate that I'm a Leo.<br />
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I hate that I don't like to be alone.<br />
I hate that I'm always feeling like I don't belong anywhere.<br />
I hate that I'm always comparing myself to others<br />
I hate that I'm always making myself feel inferior.<br />
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University choices are killing me.<br />
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I'm scared.<br />
Scared of too many things<br />
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I'm afraid of the new environment, the new people, the money issues, whether I can take the pressure.<br />
I'm afraid I won't have any friends there, I'm afraid I'll drift away from my current friends.<br />
I'm afraid at the end of it all I will just come to realize that there's nothing I can do better than to be useless.<br />
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Is this supposed to be the way to feel when it's time to make a choice? mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-38984547366611191822012-04-04T15:27:00.000+08:002012-04-04T15:27:26.570+08:00work, and other stuffblogging at work, <br />
a first after awhile. <br />
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currently stoning at my desk while I take my time to finish some of the stuff I was told to do. <br />
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... <br />
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is it weird to want to try stuff ... like drinking and smoking and clubbing? <br />
I mean, I know it's not good for me, and I know I probably shouldn't even think about it. <br />
But sometimes I really just wanna try it at least once. <br />
If I get hooked, I'll exercise self-control (not as easy as it sounds, I know)<br />
If I don't, then at least I know. <br />
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sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.<br />
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:< <br />
<br />mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-57726400483297224012012-03-13T12:37:00.001+08:002012-03-13T12:37:00.977+08:00internship :(second day and i'm dying already. <br />
the place is okay, but IDK, I'm just not feeling like I can survive in this place for six months. <br />
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i was always more of a retail line person. /le sigh/<br />
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i never liked feeling like a newbie, but i never seem to adapt to an environment fast enough. i'm a contradicting person. <br />
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my supervisor SEEMS nice, but ino the second day I still can't tell. she's intimidating all right. 不会怕才怪。<br />
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i should be glad that I'm doing admin and research to support the events team i suppose. <br />
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I wonder how many off days I'm entitled to. <br />
mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-35073902603733543972012-03-11T20:30:00.001+08:002012-03-11T20:30:46.709+08:00Of horoscopes and blood types.Sometimes I wonder how many people actually believe what their horoscope signs and blood type characteristics tell them, or how many people actually find that the characteristics and signs to be like what they really are in real life.<br />
I've also recently realized that even the beginning letter of your name actually do carry some characteristics ._.<br />
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For me, I actually find that SOME of the characteristics actually describe me perfectly in real life.<br />
I went to dig up some of the tweets that I've retweeted previously that actually fit me pretty well.<br />
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HOROSCOPES:<br />
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<li><b>#Leo enjoy others who they can imitate and learn from</b></li>
<li><b>When a #Leo commits, they do so completely with their heart and soul</b></li>
<li><b>As a #Leo, you utilize your energy together with the benefit of a sense for direction, clarity and wisdom</b></li>
<li><b>In their lovers, #Leos try to find a person who can match wits with them, a partner who understands their need to be the centre of attraction</b></li>
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BLOODTYPES:</div>
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<li><b>Type O might forgive someone in their heart, but tend to have difficulties expressing it because of their pride</b></li>
<li><b>Be loyal to a Type O and they will never let you down, but once you disappoint them they'll never look at you the same</b></li>
<li><b>Type Os seem like they never get stressed out, because they like to hide their stress</b></li>
<li><b>Type Os are ambitious, yet lazy at the same time</b></li>
<li><b>Type Os know when something won't work out, but still can't stop hoping</b></li>
<li><b>Type Os don't like to ask for help, they believe they can do everything on their own</b></li>
<li><b>Type Os easily fall head over heels at first sight</b></li>
<li><b>Type Os are horrible at expressing their feelings</b></li>
<li><b>Type Os tend to come off as indifferent when they are trying to hide their true feelings</b></li>
<li><b>When a Type O walks out on you, do whatever it takes to get them back. They miss you.</b></li>
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INITIALS:</div>
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<li><b>Most "D"s are very worried about their figure</b></li>
<li><b>Although "D"s might seem strong and all, they fear many things</b></li>
<li><b>Most "D"s are no longer who they thought they were, they've changed alot</b></li>
<li><b>Don't you dare make a "D" jealous, it will haunt them for days</b></li>
<li><b>Most "D"s hearts are battlegrounds, where mistrust and need of others are in a constant struggle</b></li>
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So basically, that just makes me a prideful idiot who can't express her feelings well, and has a love-hate relationship with drama ._. </div>
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Ain't I just awesome /sarcasm/ </div>
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Do you believe in this kinda stuff? *talks to a wall in cyberspace*</div>
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On a side note, my internship is starting tomorrow and I AM SCARED ._. </div>
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Not scared as in really frightened, but more of intimidated? </div>
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I was never one who could adapt to a new environment easily ._. </div>
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Today marks the first year since the Great Eastern Japan Earthquake.<br />
Since Japan is one hour ahead of Singapore, I took a moment of silence at 1.46pm for those who were lost and for those who have lost because of this tragedy.<br />
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I still remember seeing Hiroto, AOI, RUKI, T.M.R and all the JROCKERs that I follow on Twitter tweeting about what was going on, and after the quake, they were helping out by retweeting information on shelters, spreading word on who was missing and got their followers to help out.<br />
It was really nice to see that they were all helping out.<br />
T.M.R also organized a charity drive Stand Up Japan, where artistes put their own personal items up for auction and all the proceeds went to helping the earthquake victims.<br />
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To be perfectly honest, this earthquake has impacted me in some ways too.<br />
If it wasn't for the earthquake, we wouldn't have started talking.<br />
Even though we're like this now, but I've never actually regretted it.<br />
*coughcough* <br />
<br />mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-12852874038156276152012-03-01T20:34:00.001+08:002012-03-01T20:34:15.627+08:00hello march.March is gonna be a really busy month.<br />
My internship starts in less than two weeks, and I've gotta do a little shopping before I start work !<br />
I'm looking forward to start work, but nevertheless I'm kinda intimidated by whatever is gonna be happening at the workplace !<br />
頑張ろうぜ!<br />
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<br />mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-47594656574107515482012-02-24T00:33:00.000+08:002012-02-24T00:44:53.287+08:00the two most important people in my life.as of yesterday, I've officially ended my second year in RP with my last UT.<br />
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Time really, really does fly.<br />
One moment we're complaining about how the semester is gonna suck so badly, the next moment we're reminiscing those times that we've spent together.<br />
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Two years in RP, and there have been alot of people who have come and gone in my life.<br />
But the two who impacted me the most, will definitely be this two beautiful ladies.<br />
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Elise (above) and Dionne (below):<br />
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They probably have no idea, but they have left such a huge impact on my life.<br />
To some, one semester, or even two years might not be a long period of time.<br />
But to me, these were probably the time most well-spent in my entire schooling life.<br />
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Dionne. I've known her since the first day of the first semester of my first year in RP. I'll admit, being new to how poly life was like, I had the tendency to go with the flow. When the class had disagreements with her, it kinda affected me slightly even though I tried my best to be neutral.<br />
Then came the second semester of my Year 1 life, where we were posted to the same class again. This time, however, I managed to get to know her better and that was when we became close. I got to know her better as a team mate, a friend, and now, we're so so close.<br />
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Elise. I've only known her for a semester, of which to some, isn't very long. But now, we've become so close. We started off partialling one MA lesson, and I am really glad that I have found a friend like her. She's done so so so so much for me, I wouldn't mind spending an entire lifetime paying her back.<br />
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Because they're both a year or two older than I am, I will honestly admit that I tend to turn to them to advice for all kinds of matters.<br />
And they've really helped me alot, be it by sharing their experiences with me, or just being there and supporting me and my decisions through it all.<br />
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Without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.<br />
Without them, I probably wouldn't have made it through this far, this happy in poly.<br />
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Words are seriously not enough to describe how much these two people mean to me.<br />
They're the first ones I want to share my happy times with.<br />
They're the first ones who will be there when I'm in need of a listening ear, or advice.<br />
They're the two people that I would never ever want to lose.<br />
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谢谢你们一直都在我的身边! <span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; -webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color: whitesmoke; color: #333333; display: inline !important; float: none; font-family: HelveticaNeue, 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 17px; orphans: 2; text-align: -webkit-auto; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"> ♥</span><br />
<div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">愛してる! <span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; -webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color: whitesmoke; color: #333333; display: inline !important; float: none; font-family: HelveticaNeue, 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 17px; orphans: 2; text-align: -webkit-auto; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"> ♥</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: HelveticaNeue, 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 17px;"><br />
</span></span></div>To Elise, Dionne: <br />
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" We might be going on our own different ways in Year 3 because I'm going for internship, and the both of you are going to TPAM. But no matter what, I don't want to lose contact with any of you. And I want you two to know that I will always, always, always be here for the both of you. I might not be mature enough to give advice on certain stufsf, but I want to at least be there as a listening ear, as someone that you can turn to whenever you need to. I love you guys kay! <span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; -webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color: whitesmoke; color: #333333; display: inline !important; font-family: HelveticaNeue, 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 17px; orphans: 2; text-align: -webkit-auto; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;">♥ "</span><br />
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<i>"It's not about who's been there since the beginning, it's about who were there till the very end..." </i><br />
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mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-78274525573205023102012-02-20T23:52:00.000+08:002012-02-20T23:52:39.614+08:00When you don't have high expectations, you don't have huge disappointments.<br />
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I saw this coming, and surprisingly, I don't feel affected by it.<br />
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Oh well.<br />
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If mind games are what you want, mind games are what you get.mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-78201317451316934632012-02-20T14:56:00.000+08:002012-02-20T14:56:08.666+08:00after alot of thinking, i realized..<br />
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after 19 years, i might not be ready for a r/s after all.<br />
As a Leo, I guess I really do love freedom, in all forms.<br />
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I'm not going to think too much about anything, and just do what I feel like doing.<br />
I'm only going to be young once.mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-26391671882917304042012-02-19T18:36:00.002+08:002012-02-19T18:36:11.279+08:00" to love and win is the greatest, to love and lose is the second greatest" - Twittermindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-41224234690364311672012-02-18T19:25:00.001+08:002012-02-18T19:25:08.616+08:00<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; -webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; background-color: whitesmoke; color: #333333; display: inline !important; float: none; font-family: HelveticaNeue, 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; letter-spacing: normal; line-height: 17px; orphans: 2; text-align: -webkit-auto; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;">If this is a second chance then I won't let go. It's better to try and to lose, rather than to not try and lose it anyway</span>mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-40181600579007194342012-02-15T22:58:00.001+08:002012-02-15T23:00:21.424+08:00update, and the little things in life.I ARE BACK.<br />
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I know I haven't been updating. Even if I did they're just little bits that I just wanted to rant about.<br />
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And as I type... I realized that.… I have tons of stuff that I haven't blogged about YET.<br />
ARGH.<br />
I've yet to blog about Sundown Festival, which was LAST YEAR. Damm.<br />
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So I'll start from the most recent one in memory:<br />
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THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL.<br />
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And so the day started off with me waiting for my lady boss Elise as usual at JE. She was with Angela and bright and early in the morning, the two of them handed me a paper bag from THEFACESHOP, and it was supposedly tons of nail polishes and masks that she had and wanted to pass to me. Then when they asked me to open it in class...<br />
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IT WAS A FREAKING CHEKI/POLAROID (whichever you prefer to call it)<br />
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I was SO FREAKING STUNNED that I ran over and "strangled" Elise right there and then.<br />
That girl is always spending SO MUCH MONEY on me. I feel so guilty dammit.<br />
But it's okay, I have an awesome (imo) idea for her birthday present and I shall see to it that it gets to her one way or another. HEH.<br />
It even came with a little handmade card that she stayed up just to make. /moved to tears/<br />
I teared when I reached home and flipped through it properly.<br />
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my lady boss! lots of love for her /round of applause/<br />
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the polaroid/cheki that she bought for me, plus the card<br />
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and here she is, the one and only, most wonderful lady boss ever !<br />
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On to the next, Valentines' Day.<br />
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Spent it alone for the 18th year consecutively. But this time, I spent it alone willingly.<br />
Because I'd rather end it quick when I don't feel anything more, rather than to drag it out and hurt the other party more.<br />
I am still hung up over the past and it's not fair to anyone else to be hurt because of what I can't get over.<br />
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Yes, I miss the past, those days with him. And yes, I know that he won't be coming back.<br />
But no, I am not over him. Not when I went past all those places that I used to go with him, not when all these flashbacks are coming back to me.<br />
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sigh.<br />
Nevertheless here's a belated Valentines' Day for all !<br />
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Lastly, meetup + catchup + shopping session with my secondary school BFF Chen Min !<br />
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I just realized we didn't have a picture together.<br />
Really had an awesome time with her, chatting about guys (mainly) and shopping around JP !<br />
Went shopping with her for office wear and now I am SUPER tempted to go shopping. Shall drag my mum around this weekend :D<br />
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I guess we have a similar thought process when it comes to guys.<br />
Told her my stories and she shared hers.<br />
Ranted everything out and truth be told, I feel much better.<br />
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I always feel better after ranting, but I'm always afraid that I'll be disturbing others, or that others are going to find me irritating >_<<br />
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Aaaaaand, I guess that's all.<br />
Till the next time, byebye (^ ^)/~~mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-46002802654981965922012-02-07T08:40:00.001+08:002012-02-07T08:40:19.268+08:00如果两个朋友因为我而分散、那我宁可消失得无影无踪。mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-35530035896094475742012-02-04T23:14:00.001+08:002012-02-04T23:14:41.660+08:00I'm afraid that I'm rushing into things.<br />
Or that my decision might just have been a wrong move.<br />
Only time will tell, unless karma finds me first.mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-57306733420791868592012-02-01T20:27:00.000+08:002012-02-01T20:27:09.787+08:00010212I know I haven't been updating, there are still TONS of stuff that I have yet to blog about...<br />
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But yeah. I'm lazy like that.<br />
I'll try to post them ... as soon as possible \0\~<br />
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Anyway, its February now and I hope it will turn out to be one that is good.<br />
Valentines' is coming up and it's probably gonna be different this year.<br />
For good or for bad, I don't know.<br />
But yeahhhh.<br />
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<i>karma is gonna get back at me for this. </i>mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-41123510422297234542012-01-18T19:41:00.001+08:002012-01-18T19:41:12.974+08:00negativityi guess that's just the way I am - NEGATIVE.<br />
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But I've always found negativity to be a good thing.<br />
It helps you prepare for the worst, right?<br />
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I mean, if you're thinking in the most negative way possible, disappointments probably wouldn't hurt that much, and that makes good outcomes a pleasant surprise.<br />
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That's why I think negatively!<br />
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Personally I think that I'm more suited to be that alone, aloof girl that no one wants to talk to.<br />
I have amazing friends, I SWEAR.<br />
But sometimes I'm just afraid.<br />
I don't want things to change, I don't want things to end.<br />
But that will never happen.<br />
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At the end of it all, I'd probably end up all alone again.<br />
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time for depression to set in.<br />
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until the next post!<br />
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(I know I've been posting lots of negative stuff, sorry about that!)mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-30954888805334289612012-01-12T20:49:00.003+08:002012-01-12T20:49:56.232+08:00<br />
Being attached to someone is scary. <br />
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You never know when they'll leave you, you never know when they'll hurt you.<br />
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I like the feeling of being attached to someone but I fear the disappointment at the end of the road.<br />
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I've seen it too many times, and the paranoia is getting to me.<br />
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Will there ever be someone who will love me for who I am, and prove to me that he will never want to give up on me?<br />
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When will I be able to believe these words: " I can't promise you that there won't be tears and hurt and pain in this r/s, but through it all, I'll be with you."?<br />
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Maybe I just don't want to face my own feelings.<br />
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But then again, it scares me.<br />mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-80944051073298782412012-01-09T18:47:00.002+08:002012-01-09T18:47:39.000+08:00convincingtrying to convince myself that I am imagining things.<br />
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I don't want it to end up like how it was last time.<br />
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I have a wild imagination.<br />I tend to think about a lot of unnecessary things.<br />
But sometimes I let my imagination get the better of me, and I end up like an idiot through it all.<br />
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<br />mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-66204567588756188232011-12-31T17:13:00.001+08:002011-12-31T17:13:05.519+08:00last post of 2011.Today, 31st December 2011.<br />
It's almost 5pm as I type and that means only 7 hours till 2012 comes around.<br />
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2011 has been one of the most eventful year I have ever experienced.<br />
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But here, I want to bring up a topic that I've seen and I have that explicit urge to talk about it.<br />
Spending New Year's (Christmas too) with friends at clubs, at wherever.<br />
It's just my <b>personal opinion</b>, so please don't take it to heart.<br />
Different people have different ways of thinking so yeah.<br />
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For me, my family are a HUGE part of my life.<br />
And I will spend as much time as I can with them, especially on occasions like this.<br />
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Since New Year's is just hours away, let's talk about New Year's then.<br />
I know some people like to spend such occasions with friends but for me, it's family. DEFINITELY family.<br />
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Your family is the one who have been by your side through whatever you've gone through the past year, whether good or bad.<br />
But friends come and go, that is a sad but very real truth we all have to face.<br />
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Yeah sure you can celebrate with friends on New Year's, but at the end of the year when you look back, you'll think about all that happened, and you might (or might not) end up thinking about a friend that you lost, or a friendship that has drifted apart.<br />
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Negative thinking, yes.<br />
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That's why I am perfectly fine without any plans on New Year's eve. I won't complain, nothing. Just a holiday for all to enjoy.<br />
Cherish your family people !!<br />
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Anyway. 2011 is coming to an end and I hope ALL (or whatever amount of readers that I have) of you will have a great year ahead!<br />
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<3 <3 <3 <3<br />
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来年もよろしくお願いします!mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-29835465708689092632011-12-25T23:17:00.000+08:002011-12-25T23:23:41.814+08:002011.2011 has been... EVENTFUL.<br />
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I've had my fair share of ups and downs this year.<br />
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Early 2011, I was still a Year 1 brat. Yes, a brat.<br />
Had lots of fun with the class, had a chalet and all.<br />
I enjoyed myself.<br />
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April 2011 till September(?) 2011, Year 2 Semester 1.<br />
Quite mundane, but still, I met awesome people - my GGs 2.0<br />
Samantha, Uma, Aida, Julie, Sifitifi and Nabilah <3 <3 <3<br />
First group of people to celebrate my birthday for me in quite awhile!!<br />
<b>And then there was G. </b><br />
I wouldn't call it a trying period of time<br />
But during those two months with him, I could say I had a taste of what it's like to be in a r/s.<br />
Things happened, my paranoia got the better of me, he gave up, we went our separate ways.<br />
Up till now I still have no idea why he would approach someone like me ROFL /can't see what so good about me/<br />
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October 2011, Year 2 Semester 2.<br />
I had already given up trying to socialize because I'm anti-social like that.<br />
But in the end, I made a very good friend, and my lady yakuza boss Elise!!<br />
I love her to bits and pieces /glomps/ <br />
And I'm glad I could meet such a great person.<br />
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And as I type, there's only one week left to the end of 2011.<br />
I wouldn't say that I've accomplished alot.<br />
But I would say that I have grown, and I have learnt.<br />
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How was your 2011?<br />
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<i>I still remember the night when I took this pic, it was when I went to watch X-Men First Class with G. </i><br />
<i>Ahhh the memories, NOT. </i><br />
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p/s: my week's gonna be busy so I'll prolly be posting again after New Year's. /talking to the wall/<br />
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<br />mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-69965066467256551962011-12-16T21:33:00.002+08:002011-12-25T23:24:21.635+08:00moving on.Yes, I know I've said this alot of times.<br />
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<i>"I'm going to move on."</i><br />
<i>"I'm moving on."</i><br />
<i>"I've moved on."</i><br />
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Yet at the end of it all, when I receive a text from you, when I see you, it seems like all my efforts gone to waste.<br />
I get that feeling all over again, and then I realize, I'm actually<b> NOT</b> over you yet.<br />
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<b>This can't go on. </b><br />
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I have to move on,<b> I really have to. </b><br />
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Tomorrow, the 17th of December, will be the birthday of a friend that I used to have.<br />
Yes, <b>used to</b>.<br />
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We knew each other since Primary 3, we were best friends all the way till Sec 4.<br />
She started ignored my texts, ignored my calls.<br />
And then I lost a friend.<br />
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I think ever since that, I've been kinda paranoid about having people close to me.<br />
It's like, I wanna be close with them, but I'm afraid to at the same time.<br />
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That's why I push people away.<br />
That's why I pushed you away.<br />
これって、私の「定め」って言う事なのかな、<br />
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I wanna go back to the days when "we" didn't exist.<br />
Or at least to the days when "we" was still a possibility.<br />
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<br />mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-57211964702146625782011-12-14T22:20:00.001+08:002011-12-14T22:20:48.300+08:00I can't believe that I was expecting you to take some form of action after seeing me today.<br />
Like a text, anything.<br />
But no, just a "hi".<br />
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Not that I should have been expecting you to tell me that you miss me.<br />
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OH WAIT.<br />
I forgot I'm just your "backup" when you don't have anyone else to go out with.<br />
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So much for promises.<br />
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Sometimes I wish we never were.<br />
Because that way, we'd be better off.mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-19912139145776155752011-12-12T21:33:00.001+08:002011-12-12T21:33:52.120+08:00last week of school.HEY READERSSSSS /talking to the wall/<br />
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It's the last weeeeek of schooool!<br />
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I started my week with F&B UT2! Consisted of a written and spoken portion but it was fine imo.<br />
Gonna end it with IEI UT 2 /le sigh/<br />
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It's only Monday but sadly... I'M BROKE ALREADY.<br />
Spent 28 on a knit top and 20 on a maxi dress.<br />
I have no idea how I am going to pull off the maxi though.<br />
I need inspiration!! /searching desperately/<br />
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Oh well.<br />
Life's going well I'd say.<br />
Still waiting for calls from my IIP company choices but they probably wouldn't want someone like me /shrugs/<br />
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Until next time <3<br />
CIAO ~<br />
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<br />mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-68130236510103937702011-12-11T11:52:00.001+08:002011-12-11T11:52:27.817+08:00Me.I'm not pretty.
I'm not smart.
I'm not skinny.
I don't have beautiful features.
I don't have nice long hair.
Heck, I might not even be your favourite type.
So why me?
Questioning my worth once again.mindless-obsessionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07829652315921739862noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7775032559482314310.post-34939613542801959682011-12-05T21:46:00.001+08:002011-12-05T22:19:01.066+08:00SCMS 2011I know I'm supposed to update about SUNDOWN, of which I supposed MORE people are interested in, but I am TOO LAZY (as usual) to upload my pics of the fanmeet and the actual LIVE itself so yeahhh. /dies/<br />
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Standard Chartered Marathon 2011.<br />
Got forced by the school to do it, but I enjoyed myself anyways.<br />
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Reporting time: 4th December 2011, 0100 hours at the F1 Pit Building.<br />
Met Elise <3 at JP at 9, grabbed some coffee before we headed down to Cineleisure for some pool with Rixin !<br />
Alan met us there and we started playing!<br />
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Damm, NEVER EVER EVER believe a guy when he says he sucks at pool. BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS END UP BETTER THAN WHAT THEY SAY.<br />
That, and I need more training OTL<br />
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Headed down to the meeting venue and got our volunteer kit! Tee was waaaaaay too large but I love big tees so yeah /nods/ <br />
It makes a good pajama tee. \(^ ^)/ バンザーイ<br />
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After a quick meal and fooling around, we got to our assigned spot, BENJAMIN SHEARS BRIDGE!<br />
Reached there at about 3 but we had to stone till close to 6 because the run didn't start till then.<br />
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Once the race started, we were standing all the way till close to 3.30!<br />
But it was okay. I had fun cheering them on!<br />
The best part was, IT WAS UNDER THE BLOODY HOT SUN, ON THE MIDDLE OF A BRIDGE.<br />
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There were quite a few incidents but I guess it was quite okay.<br />
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It was generally just like that because me, Elise and Rixin were blowing the whistles all the way.<br />
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I have sunburns mostly on the left side of my body, my arms, thighs and calves. Not forgetting my nose, face and EARS.<br />
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Here I would like to thank Rixin, Elise and YingSing for helping me out because they know of my weak knees and helped SHORTY ME get over the bloody high (in my opinion) barricades. Really appreciate it ! <3 <3 <3 <3<br />
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And I guess that concludes my SCMS experience.<br />
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here's a pic! Me with Elise, my yakuza lady boss! <3<br />
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