sometimes

sometimes I hate being the way I am.

sometimes I hate that I'm a Leo.

I hate that I don't like to be alone.
I hate that I'm always feeling like I don't belong anywhere.
I hate that I'm always comparing myself to others
I hate that I'm always making myself feel inferior.


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University choices are killing me.

I'm scared.
Scared of too many things

I'm afraid of the new environment, the new people, the money issues, whether I can take the pressure.
I'm afraid I won't have any friends there, I'm afraid I'll drift away from my current friends.
I'm afraid at the end of it all I will just come to realize that there's nothing I can do better than to be useless.



Is this supposed to be the way to feel when it's time to make a choice?